TITLE: As We Are Now
AUTHOR: May Sarton
PUBLISHER: WW Norton
PUB. YEAR: 1973
SETTING: New England
FORMAT: - print/library (133 pp)
FORMAT: - print/library (133 pp)
RATING - 5/5
I recently read about this book from JoAnn@ Lakeside Musing and, I'm so happy I decided to read it.
It's not that often that I've read a book written from the perspective of a senior citizen, especially one in failing health. Such is the case of Caroline (Caro) Spencer.
Caro is 76 years old, a quiet, intelligent and sensitive woman. She never married and spent 40 years as a teacher. When she suffers a heart attack, she's no longer able to navigate the stairs in her home and briefly moves in with her older brother John, 80, and his much younger wife, Ginny. Soon after this brief stay, her brother drops her off at Twin Elms, a rural nursing home over 100 miles from where she once lived. He's not sure what to say so he remains quiet and quickly leaves.
She tries to make the best of her situation. Caro is happy to have her own room with a nice view, as well as some music and poetry. She begins journaling as a way to preserve her failing memory. Some days she begins to doubt those memories. She calls her journal, "The Book of the Dead", as when someone discovers it, she knows that she will be dead.
On the days she sits outside, she pretends to be on vacation enjoying the scenery. She enjoys the times the resident cat, sneaks into her room for a visit. She wonders where her brother John has been, he hadn't visited since he dropped her off. When he does eventually show up (4 weeks after he left her there) he only stays for fifteen minutes and once again remains quiet.
What is not so pleasant about life at Twin Elms are the mother and daughter team that runs the home: Harriet and Rose. They seem to find a way to show their disapproval of things the residents do by withholding privileges or occasional niceties. Like in childhood, she's sent to bed without supper because of a tantrum. Deep down she is bitter and angry.
So if this sounds like a downer of a story, it is, but, it is also seemed so honest and so beautiful. It's only 133 pages, and I loved it so much. It was written more like a journal with the first person narrative. Highly recommended.












